Years ago, when our first granddaughter was very little, Connie and I were still in our late 50''s. But we were definitely feeling our age and had begun to discuss things like living wills, advance care directives, etc. In one conversation about our future, I remember Connie saying, "I want us to live long enough to dance at Sissy's wedding. Sissy just turned 16. If my disease progresses at the rate my mon's did and if I'm still alive, I doubt I'll even know who Connie and Sissy are.
It seems weird to me that I can remember a conversation with Connie that took place at least 15 years ago, but I need to check my smartphone each morning to know what day it is.
In a couple of days, Connie and I will be going to Missouri to attend our grandson's graduation from Army boot camp. This will be the first time we have gone on a long trip when I won't be driving. I used to love driving. It was relaxing for me to drive on a long trip. But now, especially late in the day, I get confused by lots of stimuli. So if the traffic is heavy and Connie is telling me what exit to look for and semis are whizzing by, I'm so inundated by stimuli that I don't know what to do. And that too makes me feel guilty because Connie has always hated driving in heavy traffic and now she has to or we have to stay home.
That's all for now.
It seems weird to me that I can remember a conversation with Connie that took place at least 15 years ago, but I need to check my smartphone each morning to know what day it is.
In a couple of days, Connie and I will be going to Missouri to attend our grandson's graduation from Army boot camp. This will be the first time we have gone on a long trip when I won't be driving. I used to love driving. It was relaxing for me to drive on a long trip. But now, especially late in the day, I get confused by lots of stimuli. So if the traffic is heavy and Connie is telling me what exit to look for and semis are whizzing by, I'm so inundated by stimuli that I don't know what to do. And that too makes me feel guilty because Connie has always hated driving in heavy traffic and now she has to or we have to stay home.
That's all for now.
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